Good morning, Migraine and Headache Family! To say that I hope you're all Migraine- and Headache-free today would be pointless because some of you are bound to be dealing with a Migraine or Headache today. Instead, let me wish each of you as good a day as possible.
How was your week? Mine went pretty well, but a Migraine on Wednesday left me thinking about how the fluctuation of neurotransmitters such as serotonin, norepinephrine, and dopamine can affect our behavior during a Migraine attack. Being cranky (that's the polite word) is often one of my prodrome symptoms and one of the first sign of a Migraine attack beginning. One reason this symptom is so frustrating to me is that if I don't notice and and be careful, I can snap at people and be truly unpleasant to be around.
That's the situation in which I found myself on Wednesday. Our elderly cat was being especially needy of attention, and I had no patience for it. Look at that face! How could I be cranky with her? But I was cranky with her when she wanted to sit in my lap, get down, and get back up - over and over again. Then, of course, I cried because I'd yelled at her. Sheesh! I think Ali is smarter than I am though. I was sitting on the floor with her crying, but it didn't faze her. She just climbed into my lap and tried to lick the tears from my face. This, of course, brought thoughts about how did I deserve such a sweet, forgiving little friend.
I went to the kitchen to get some cold water, and John (ever understanding husband) started talking to me while I had the freezer open for ice and couldn't hear him. After 30 years of marriage, you'd think that by now, he'd remember that I can't hear him when the freezer is open. BUT, instead of snapping at him, I counted to 10 while I got my water, then asked him what he'd said.
Now, I'm sure y'all know where this is going. On top of being cranky, I started feeling guilty. The people and pets in my life who are unquestionably understanding and supportive when I get a Migraine don't deserve to be snapped at just because I have a Migraine. My Migraine made me do it! That's both true and an excuse, I suppose. The crankiness is a Migraine symptom, and if I were to follow my own advice, I'd say "Dump the guilt." Anyone who's experienced this knows, however, that it's not that simple.
I've promised myself to work at being more aware of both my body and my moods so I can spot my early Migraine symptoms earlier. If I can recognize the crankiness early, maybe I can spare John and Ali from being snapped at and myself from the resultant guilt.
It occurs to me that I can't possibly be the only person who has this issue. If you have this problem too, how do you handle it? Please post a comment below, and share with me!
because a migraine is NOT "just a headache"